When I was twelve I was dating a guy
that wasn’t the best influence in my life. I decided at a very young age that I would not have sex with
anyone until I was married and I vowed to keep that promise no matter what was
going on in my life. One evening
my boyfriend and his friend showed up at my door. He walked in and immediately I knew what his intentions were
and even what he had said to his friend on the way over. As he walked in, I’m not sure what came
over me but I blurted out what his intentions were and even what he had said to
his friend on the way over. He
looked at me with a little fear and shock! He immediately started looking through his coat while his
friend was laughing. His friend
then said, “Dude, she said everything that you had said, verbatim!” Then my boyfriend asked me if he was “bugged”,
looking scared now. Because I was amazingly right on with
what his intentions were and what he had said on the way over, I too started to
become scared and from that day on I shut down my gifts trying to not feel and
see things about others. When I chose
to shut down my gifts I could no longer feel random things about people and
would often get things wrong about them.
Often
young children are more sensitive to their gifts. They feel and see things better because they don’t have
certain beliefs about themselves that come on through the influences of what others
think and say about them. In the
scriptures is says to become as a little child, full of love, full of hope in
one’s self and in others, wanting to obey and do the Father’s will for us. One of my favorite scriptures is in the
New Testament in 1 Corinthians 13:11 “When I was a child, I spake as a child, I
understood as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.”
The
way we put off childish things is through our beliefs. Pay attention - when you have a belief,
how does it make you feel? Does it
feel like the Spirit is guiding you or does it make you feel dark and
angry? Often our reality of things
are misunderstood by us because of our beliefs. Like when a person says to you,
“ You are taking what I said out of context or out of proportion.” It is often
our beliefs that cause us to look at things not as they seem or appear to be.
Our beliefs are a huge part of this life and can and will be damning to us if
we let them be too much apart of us. We do have beliefs that keep us safe from
believing in something that is not true. However, it can work the same for the other way around. We had strong beliefs that we even
brought with us, ones that can affect us even here on this earth. I believe
that with a loving Heavenly Father we helped create the blueprints for our
lives. I also believe that that we even had some say in part of it. I have come
to know that we are also assigned (foreordained) to things that the Lord knows
that we would be good at, and in turn help others. So this life is a
continuation, a saga if you will, to what we were like from before we came
here. The only way to true happiness is through what we have been sent here to
do; and by connecting with that, we are in turn connecting to God.
We
can keep ourselves from moving forward by the belief that we are too busy, that
we have too much on our plate, or that we simply don’t believe we have enough
tools to move forward and then our beliefs turn into fears. Fears of failure, fears of not getting
it right the first time. We didn’t
come here to get it right the first time; this life isn’t about being perfect, it’s
about perfecting that which isn’t. Fears of being misled or deceived. Just remember that there is a counterfeit to everything good
and if you have gotten rid of some of your beliefs that can deceive you, you
will have no fear. We can all have
those same fears if we let them. I
have been inspired to home school my children, I am inspired to write in this
blog, I have been instructed that I need to start my family history work, I
have also been instructed to write a book and I have clients I talk to daily, I
am a mother of nine and a wife, etc.
How do I do it? I am just simply doing what I have been sent here to do
first and then God literally makes it so I can get all the things done through inspiration
so it makes it easier on myself without using too much of my own energy right
down to what to buy at the grocery store or to timings on when to buy things or
where to buy them and so on. When
you get rid of beliefs and tell God, “Just show me what I need to do to get
everything that I need to get done,” then the inspiration just flows and you are
led to greater and better things in this life.
Our
continuation is vital in this plan.
Our bodies hold an important key element in the fact that in the flesh
we can and will get rid of things that hold us up (our beliefs) so this body is
such a gift from God! I believe
that what would take us a very long time in the spirit, years even, would take
us only days in the flesh to get rid of what’s holding us up and blocking us
from moving forward.
I
am always trying to pay attention when my children are young to what they are
feeling, to what they can see and what they can do. I look for things like what they notice in the world about
themselves and in others. I try to help them develop what they are seeing and
feeling. The younger they start to
notice the better for them because then they will grow up feeling like they are
in a safe environment to where they feel like they can be who they are and what
they are foreordained to do. Some
of their frustrations and angers are often because of what they have come here
to do. They often feel alone, overwhelmed, etc. I know as a teenager and even young adult I often felt alone
and overwhelmed because I knew in my spirit that I came here to do more than
what I had allowed myself to become and do. Often teenagers and young adults become withdrawn and even
depressed. The best thing to do as
adults of these gifted children is to find and figure out our gifts so that we
can create that “safe” environment for them to learn who they are and grow.
When
I became an adult my faith was weak - I was scared of anything and everything. I was even scared to know who I really
was. I had a dream one night that
changed me because it made me realize how lacking I was in my faith. I was so scared in my dream that I
fainted in my dream and woke up for real to find that my room was pitch black
and that I couldn’t move. There
was a street light outside my window and the light would shine in but that
night there was nothing but darkness.
I couldn’t move out of fear.
Even days later I was having some work done on my neck and my
kineseologist was testing to see what homeopathic medicine I needed to take
because he was testing that I need something. I had completely forgotten about my dream but he came back into
the room very concerned and asked me if there had been a death or something tragic
in my life because he was testing for something for severe trauma. I had
nothing that would make me test for that but then my dream came to my mind and
I told him about it. That was the moment
I knew that I needed to work on me, and stop running away from what I knew I
needed to do.
To
get rid of fears we have to take a leap of faith and it takes courage to take
two steps into the dark (the unknown) to see that is safe and that you will
have the kind of godly joy that you can only imagine. Get over your fears and
move aside those beliefs that are only creating a mirage of untruth in your
lives. Get rid of the untruth in your lives and have courage to believe that
you can!
